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ihandedyouaknifeandmyheart.

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Written while listening to "The Emptiness" by Alesana.


Love makes you laugh and cry. Love makes you smile and giggle. Love makes you bleed and grieve. It makes you look beyond the person's flaws and past transgressions. It makes you scream at the top of your lungs and rip your hair out by the roots. It allows you to enjoy the rhythmic pace of another's heartbeat against your ear as you lay pressed against their chest, drinking in their scent. You appreciate hearing his or her voice for more than ten minutes at a time. Love is a struggle; an eternal tango of pushing and pulling; giving and taking. It takes courage and pain; effort and strife; witnessing both success and failure in the midst of a typhoon of emotions.




Love takes time to grow and develop, like a fetus in a mother's womb.




Love savages your body and ravages your mind and soul. It stops you from thinking clearly. It is as though a fog has slipped into your field of vision. In tandem, love heightens your senses. It brings out both the best and worst in you.




If you truly, honestly fall in love with another, you have cut a piece of yourself away and handed it to them. If he or she reciprocates in this love, they do the same. That part of each other will never return to its original owner, and will stay with the new vessel - the other person - forever. Even if the flame of romance dies, the piece is still there.




It's an ache that never goes away no matter how many pills you swallow. It's a bullet wound that has shrapnel that the doctors never removed, yet new skin has grown over the hole. It is a bitterness that makes you bite your tongue and try to build up dams against the hot tears that will inevitably flow. Love is a ghost that haunts the corridors of the beautiful and baneful memories you share with the other person. You will never "get over" that person if your love reached the very core of your being. You will always, always love him or her even if you learn to love another.




As much as it hurts to remember, you never want to forget.




You feel hollow, cold, sick, and broken. Especially so if the person had left you for another, even after claiming to love you always and forever. It is a scar that never fades. It is a lost look in your eyes that will never leave. Seeing that person who you loved so wholly and deeply sends a ripple through your heart's chambers and a shiver down the vertebrae of your spine. Yet that feeling is like giving a recovering drug addict an overdose of their "fix." The one you love is the very person who is killing you.




It's as painful to talk about as much as it is remarkable to ponder how love clings like a vine to your soul. Even after the one you love has exited your life, be it physically or emotionally. Their tangible body is gone, but the impression of their spirit still lays beside you as you struggle to sleep at night.

A homework assignment that I refined after realizing how confusing it sounded. Somewhat of a vent, but also a reflection on past experiences.

Feel free to comment, but no critiques. I'm not much a writer of prose.

© ~brutalicwolf - Axel Wolf - 2011
Title from the lyrics of "Annabel" by Alesana (yes I'm aware I'm obsessed with this album, ha.)
© 2011 - 2024 brutalicwolf
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trig3r's avatar
wow u projected the way i feel in words i could never describe. Thank you for writing this and posting this. I have been having a very hard time trying to get over my love. She said she love me we were together for almost three years until i found out she's been seeing someone else for the past two and a half months. I t broke my heart than she broke up with me when i found out and claimed it was my fault. She's turned everyone of my friends and people i don't even know against me. He's turned my entire world upside down. Everything i thought of her, of us is gone and i question everything she has ever told, but even though she's done this to me i still long for her. I want to have her again in my arms, i want to kiss her, i want her love, but i know in my mind this can never be again and that im chasing a fantasy, because the girl i loved is gone and shes not coming back. She was the girl i gave everything up for i feel hard for her and she threw it all away and crushed me into nothing. I wish i knew what really happen. What caused her to do this, but i know she will never tell me and i can't trust anyone else's answers. Thank you though for this passage you have written, it has put things into perspective for me. Thank you